March 31, 2018
Infertility was the name of the game for years, and let me tell y’all it was a tough journey to get this little rainbow baby!
It all started with our first miscarriage 3 months into our relationship. It was both scary and exciting all at the same time, but things were still so new and we were young. I remember telling my parents and waiting for a horrible reaction, but there was nothing but support and love.
I ended up finding out I miscarried at my first doctors appointment, and the mixture of heartbreak and confusion was something I would never wish on my worst enemy. To tell you the truth it strengthened our relationship in ways I didn’t know possible, but also hurt my faith in ways I couldn’t have imagined.
In that next year my supportive boyfriend turned into my amazing fiance, and the year after we got married. We tried 8 months after getting married before we got our second chance at being parents. And again we were met with a heartbreaking moment in the doctors office. And again I was met with support as I broke down in my parents living room trying to comprehend why it just wasn’t our time.
We never lost hope though. We started fertility testing, which was probably the most emotionally and physically draining process I have gone through personally. And one morning things just felt different. It was 4AM and I remember taking the test and telling Mike not to get too excited. For anyone who has had a miscarriage before this is the harsh reality, excitement just isn’t something you allow to happen too soon.
Jackson proved us all wrong though. He made it 4 weeks, and then 8. We spent 8 weeks knowing this one may not stick, but praying that it would. And at 12 weeks our doctor told us this was it, we would finally have our little miracle baby.
It was a long, long 10 months. Morning sickness was constant, and he definitely gave us some scares along the way. And then the big day came and we were met with 12 long hours of labor before being told he was going to be a C Section.
8 hours after my water spontaneously breaking while waiting for a C Section we got to meet our little man, and it was the best moment of my life. He was 7 pounds of perfection, and I finally watched his daddy get the little miracle he ached for.
For us, this just proved there was hope after heartbreak. You don’t forget your losses, but looking into our little mans eyes makes the hurt a little less.
He was worth every part of this hard journey, and currently worth every sleepless night! So I now introduce you to our perfect little rainbow baby, Jackson Colony.